I don't know where life has taken you, but I hope it's somewhere wonderful. I'm writing you this letter to hopefully serve as a reminder of how far you've come. Remember all those times you doubted yourself? The times you felt so alone and confused? When you didn't think God ever heard your cries for help, when you just couldn't see how you'd ever make any of your big dreams a reality, or get past all of the stupid mistakes you made? I've been feeling a lot of those things. My prayer for you is that now, down the road, you're looking back and you're smiling at this old self, smiling and remembering how strong you became because of me. I worry. I worry because I can't see you, I don't know what the future holds and I'm not sure how to get to you yet. But you do, you are my future and I can't wait to meet you and see all that you've done, everything you've accomplished. I hope you had the chance to chase after all the things that I'm still sitting here wanting to do but haven't done yet, and that God has provided you with more blessings than you'll ever deserve. I hope you pursued the career you always wanted, I hope you get to serve others everyday and be a light for all of God's people. Maybe you've married the man of your dreams, maybe you have beautiful little kids, or maybe not. Maybe your life now looks completely different than I imagined it would, but whatever it looks like, I hope you think it was worth all of the bumps in the road getting there. Even though you don't exist yet as I'm writing this, you give me hope to keep believing in myself even as I continue to fail. I'm your past, and though I'll become just a memory, I'll always be with you because I shaped you. What I do today effects who you (or we, I guess I should say) will be tomorrow and several years down the road. I'll mess up, I've already messed up. But I've also succeeded. Future self, I want you to look back and be proud of who you were because it made you who you are. Of course, you won't be proud of everything and those things are the ones you really learned from. In this moment I'm doing my best with what I've been given, so overall, I hope you can look back at me and appreciate me. Tell stories about me, about all of the adventures I went on, all of the beautiful relationships I had (and the not so beautiful ones), the crazy things I did, all of the things I'm trying to do now so that you have the chance to change the world later. I want you to forgive your old self for the choices I've made that may have negatively impacted the life you have now in some way. I look up to you, so I want you to keep believing in your potential, don't take life too seriously, love fiercely, forgive without punishing, stay motivated, give more than you take, laugh until you give yourself wrinkles, love yourself, and always remember to pursue God first. I'll see you soon.
Love, Me.
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